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𝐈´𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐃𝐄𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍 Please don’t judge me just let explain. I have to admit I’ve been acting in the most disgusting way I’ve ever seen. This form of myself I’ve never recognized. 𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: 𝘐 𝘊𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘥 This form has been the worst one I’ve acted. I hurt Lola the one I loved with all of my heart.I hurt friends who came into my life and no longer talk to me on this app. Moral is even though I may be seem as a happy person. I got a job, and I’m doing well in health. I was dying inside 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 1 𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘪𝘯g 𝘰𝘧 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 🤗🥰 I’m not happy with myself. I just think my breakup with Lola changed me and life (⚠️please don’t hate on her trust me it’s not her fault it’s both of us⚠️). It’s just to be honest I’ve never been hurt a relationship love wise.( Not her fault so don’t message her anything bad) What I want to say is I just loved Lola with all of my heart. I remember as it were yesterday falling in love with her. I remember making her smile and blush with my words/cute drawings. I remember the first time I saw a picture of her. She’s was just the most beautiful woman in my eyes. I made many precious memories by her side. 💙It’s just we were too busy with our lives 💙we just sometimes didn’t appreciate each other 💙Tell each other problems. 💙Fix our problems. 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 2 𝘈 𝘣𝘳𝘰𝘬𝘦𝘯 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥, 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘭💔 The day we broke up I was sad very sad. I felt my body cold as I was dead. I felt I could no longer smile the way I used to. I just felt for pretty much after that day lost. I stopped working out. I stopped eating. I even started to drink alcohol to numb my pain. I don’t know why I didn’t move on right away? I usually do tbh if it ends but for Lola it was different. I loved her with all of me. Sometimes I even had a dark voice in myself just take drugs and let the pain go away(meaning to live happy in the afterlife called heaven God’s Paradise). I really didn’t want to do that because I remember Mac Miller( the guy I made a post about took drugs bc of the breakup of Ariana Grande. It got him killed.... I didn’t want that to be me I just never listened to that dark voice telling me to take drugs in order to be happy in another world. I started to regain myself in order to eat, go to work, and just move on. I did want us to go back and fix each other’s issues and trust. Chapter 3 Hopes get destroyed🙁 I had hope her and me would go back. I really did want us two to go back. It didn’t after finding she has someone new in her heart. At that point my heart just gave me shocks in order to be awake. 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 4: 🕯 𝘈 𝘭𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘴 🕯 Now I’ve gotten strength from my own self. I’ve said sorry to Lola since I have been commenting horrible things about her. I told her I no longer love her not bc I don’t. I just am moving on! I want her to be happy with someone else. I have to fix myself a lot even if it were to be together again. I made that love post recently bc of the of Lola and my love life. I want to be the person people love not hate. Overall, I hope you can support me in my new journey to become a new Eddy. 𝖳𝗁𝖾 𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗐𝗁𝗈 𝗂𝗌 𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒 𝗁𝖺𝗉𝗉𝗒 𝖳𝗁𝖾 𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗉𝖾𝗈𝗉𝗅𝖾 𝖺𝖽𝗈𝗋𝖾 𝖳𝗁𝖾 𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗉𝖾𝗈𝗉𝗅𝖾 𝖺𝖽𝗆𝗂𝗋𝖾 𝖳𝗁𝖾 𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗉𝖾𝗈𝗉𝗅𝖾 𝗐𝖺𝗇𝗍 𝗍𝗈 𝗁𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝖺𝗌 𝖺 𝖿𝗋𝗂𝖾𝗇𝖽 𝗈𝗋 𝗋𝖾𝗅𝖺𝗍𝗂𝗈𝗇𝗌𝗁𝗂𝗉 𝐊𝐄𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄: The day she made the post about her overdose. My heart, soul and my whole body wanted to be with her. I promise you if I knew it earlier I would’ve paid an express flight for like $1,200 just to see her. 🥺I know you are probably thinking that’s so much money just to see her? Yes, it’s a lot but that her is Lola the person I loved with all of my heart. When I told my mother about Lola taking drugs she wanted us to immediately go help. It makes me sad when people message her hateful things, send me nudes? Or you judge her by her looks. I just wish I was there to take care of her. I would’ve loved to make her favorite foods and tons of chicken/ spaghetti soup for her to recover. I would kiss her forehead and show her my true love through helping her stand up. 𝐒𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞: Would you like Lola and me to go back? Do you think Lola and me would be a cute couple?